....hold the feels....

what do i do wrong...it is so tiring....burden...feel miserable..stiff....confuse....wanted to cry, but the tears...have been hold up...do no why...cant looked...cant hears... better stay silent...fever not lessen...is that an effect?...do no... make the heart felt wanted to burst, just stay hold the feeling....i will not open my heart to anyone anymore,just want to stay in the world without any obstacles  in my world! only my world dont care anymore, really just back off.... cool... fighting...