....hold the feels....

what do i do wrong...it is so tiring....burden...feel miserable..stiff....confuse....wanted to cry, but the tears...have been hold up...do no why...cant looked...cant hears... better stay silent...fever not lessen...is that an effect?...do no... make the heart felt wanted to burst, just stay hold the feeling....i will not open my heart to anyone anymore,just want to stay in the world without any obstacles  in my world! only my world dont care anymore, really just back off.... cool... fighting...

Malas,still got long way to go....

aisshhh....nape la ku ni....so tired of studying...b4 masuk...HEpi giler...tapi biler dah halfway ni....SaD giler....aaahhhaaaahahhahahaaha ku letih la....
Ya Allah ...Kau berikanlah ku kekuatan hati jiwa n raga utk ku habiskan pembelajaran ku di UITM jengka ni...!!!!!!

 .....anyway....got half year to go through......fighting....but half year ....sunyi nyer ku...diorng dah takde...ku nak bermanja ngan sape lagi...ECEH...!! he3..seriously korng tkde mmg ku lonely giler...hu3...dah tak betul da ku ni...skjp nak sedih skjp nak emotional...skjp nak marah...erm...wey korng jgn luperkan ku tau....














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shopping....KEBAYA!

salam....kepada kawan2 ku yg sentiasa mengupdate diriku ini, sedangkan tuan punya bdn ....selalu lupe nak mengupdatekan diri....gomenasai!!! (payah org popular sgt ini...)...ha3

semalam pada tanggal 27/8 ku pergi shoopng kat ANGSANA johor bahru....hepi giler ku n my sis....siap jumpe QUE LyNDA n family...
ramai giler org yg shopping for raya tahn ni...ku dah cakap ngan mak ku b4 raya lagi ....tahun ni ku nak beli kebaya....so my wish is achieved...i got grey kebaya....harga die mahal tak ingt..!!! bile ku tgk harga ku doubt byk kali nak beli ke tak ni...??? bile ku tgk parent ku tak beli pape lagi coz belikan utk adik beradik ku ;u....feeling guilty to my conscience....huhuhu ku ingt tak jdi dah..blie tgk harga...but the story continue biler ayak ku srh ku ("go to fitting room")....i think i got their attention...he3....n mak n ayah ku pun deal nak belikan ku bju tu...so dinner in FSKM in uitm jengka will be the day of my kebaya day!!! huhuh      

Rumah ku....

dok umah sepnjg cuti ni, nak kate boring  mmg la boring tpi rase lega coz dah de kat umah sendiri...mmg takleh nak bygkan feeling ku mase kat u ....asyik2 teringat kat umah je...he3...in two weeks ni ku dok tgk cite korea je...secret garden he3...

tpi bile dah tgk cte korea ...tdo pun tak menentu he3...

kat umah lak sejak akhir2 ni panas memanjang...siang tu ku bukak kipas smpai 5 tak cukup kipas kat atas...fan stand pun ku bukak... 

...nsb bek tdo malam takla berapa pns sgt he3....

dok kat umah...keje ku kemas umah n kemas umah...huhuhu best gak ....ku mcm keje kat umah sendiri...dad ku bg elaun gak...he3 tu yang best...ku jd bos n ku jd pekerja kui3

petg2....ku g umah ojichan ku santai2 kat luar umah mmg best giler...ku tak tau nape cuti sem ni...mmg enjoyable giler he3 

 ku de uat promise kat member ku nak uat biscuit....he3 le ni tgk dlm buku je...tak beli barg2 lagi....he3 ku akan uat...ku taknak kene hukum lak ni...eyaaaaa!!!!! tapi skang ku tgh mnikmati mskn mak ku yg giler bapaknyer la best...mcm tak prnh mkn je kuikui tapi tula... LAKSA JOHOR fav <3

erm...bored

Lebih kurang 1 jam utk aku menjejakkakn kaki ke hall exam utk amek javaa.....

.huhuhu...ku tak taula nak baca takde mood da...ntah pe yg terinput n nth pe yg ku nak output huhu.....n ku tak tau la nape sejak akhir - akhir ni ku rase feel ku kat umah makin kuat n.... 30/4/2011 ku nak balik umah...tapi ku prnh trbyg klu ku tak sempat sampai umah ape jadi ar...mane la tau tb2 de accident kat tgh jln ku tak dpt dselamatkan huhuhu....prnh dgr stu cite...de sorng student ni blajar luarnegara masa nak balik umah kpl terng die terhempas...dienye mati ...tpi die tak sedar die dah mati...die balik je umah ....de ramai orng, die punyela hepi die ingt family die uat kenduri nak celebrate die balik...tapi bile die tgk btul2...seme laki bersongkok...dgr bunyi orng menangis...n bile die msuk die nmpk sekujur badan yg dah berkapan..."Sape pelak yg meninggal ni..???...." bile die tgk....tbe2 mata die mengalirkan air mata...n die hepi coz bkn family die yg meninggal tapi die....huhuhu....

Hmmmm......

Tak tau la knape sjk akhir2 ni ku makin rindu kat family ku....nak balik!!!! Makin nak balik la...tekanan belajar ni makin kuat....hu3...mtk nyawa2.... erm...bile ku ingt balik..mase skol menengah tu...dah abes ex spm punyerla berangan macm mane la hidup jd dak u ni...tapi bile dah go through n 4 sem still lg survive...ku rase ku nak putar balik masa...ku nak mask Form 6...hu3...klu lah ku amek Form 6 instead of U...ku rase hdp ku dah len kot...ku msk skol mengah, dok asrama....ckgu yg ngajar ku dri Form 1 untill Form 5...member2 ku...wah...mcm seronok jer....tapi ku msuk u....u ni mmg megajar ku yg mse degree...jgn sesekali terpkir nak amek cos math ha3....tapi klu de rezeki kat ctu amek jela...hu3...n ku tak jumpe ngan member ku kat cni...mule2 nampk awkward giler...seme muka dak innocent je...yela bru dak part 1 he3...n ku jd jakon he3...bile kat u ni, ku leh knal ngan mcm2 jenis org...mcm2 jenis perangai  he3...de yg cool, de yg comel, de yg gediks, de yg nerdy, de yg bajek hensem, de yg poyo, de yg klakar, de yg caring, de yg happy go lucky n so on....he3...anyway ku kene keep moving forward!!! aja2 fighting2 -^_^-

Seram... 4thFloor??!!

malam ni,abes je main netball ku mandi...msuk je balik,dah siap solat seme ku dperdgrkan satu cerite seram....huhuhu rupe2nye kejadian ni berlaku kat blok ku...ku blok[]....tak leh ckp t takut lak dak2 yg terlibat...ceriternyer mcm ni"....pd stu ari tu,de dak intake bru msuk..upk bg dak tu stu bilik...die msuk bilik tu die nmpk la rumate die..."...(ku nak citer lebih pun takleh sebb ku pun dgr citer dri org...bg org yg terlibat ku terpaksa menoko tmbh,asalnye ni ksh sebnr)... rumate die lak pendiam orgnyer dak ni nak beramah ngan die pun mcm nak tak nak je...de stu malam dak ni nak tdo...die srh rumate die tutup lampu...jarak rumate tu ngan suis lampu agak jauh..tpi enth camne.. lampu tu boleh tertutp sendiri...dak tu mcm tergamam,(ku pun rse meremang gak la bile member ku citer part tu)... esok nyer dak tu g tanyer upk,nak tau sape rumate die tu...tapi bile ditanyer "Adik sorng je dlm bilik tu..."...segera mungkin dak tu tkr bilik...n diamkan diri bile dtanyer...tapi bile kite smpn smthing tu utk jgka mase yg agak lame..kite jd terbeban ...so dak ni pun citer kat

 rumate die...n citer ni pun dturunkan sampai la ke tingkat dua...huhu